i figured something out about myself today at yoga. i think in my seasons of life, i go from wanting and enjoying friends and being fed by having others around, to mostly not really liking many people. i think it has something to do with me appreciating helping others, so when friends need me, i feel like our friendship is meaningful (ill have to think on this more as to why?). however when they dont need me anymore, i feel like i dont need them either. am i solely being fed by my ability to help people? why is this my yardstick?
