Its quite dark outside. There is a major fog sitting on top of all that is. Im feeling a bit like it has fallen on me too. I have surgery today. I am hopeful. excited to be on my path to recovery. My heart and my head are in this odd state of tension, not considering the surgery, but Madcap. Yesterday we agreed on settlement terms. Almost 1 year ago is when I quit. Since then, I have looked to this moment of "winning". The thought of winning carried with it a hope of excitement. A hope that I would finally feel respected. A hope that justice has been served. A hope of an apology. A hope of moving on. But it does not feel anything like hope or winning. Yes, I am thankful to be done with all of this, but what have I really won? What is the money good for when Ive lost much more than Ive gained?
Knocked me off of my feet
But I think it's time for me to start walking again,
Stop running away from things.
Next time you see me,
I will be singing a new song/
I am learning to shine on.
Shine on, shine on,
There'll be time enough for darkness when everything's gone.
Shine on, shine on,
There is work to be done in the dark before dawn.
It's been hard not to give in,
And it ain't easy living in hard times.
I know it's weighing on your mind.
Next time you see me,
I'll be uplifting, yes I will give you hope!
I am learning as I go to shine on.
Shine on, shine on.
There'll be time enough for darkness before everything's gone.
Shine on, shine on,
There is work to be done in the dark before dawn.
I know how dark it seems,
Feel it coming up inside of me,
And I feel it in you too, in everything you do.
Next time you see me,
We'll both be laughing, oh just to be alive!
We are learning to shine, shine on.
Shine on, shine on.
There'll be time enough for darkness when everything's gone
Shine on, shine on.
There is work to be done in the dark before dawn.
There is work to be done,
So you you've got to shine on.
Daisy May
